Chapter 31 Freedom for Sarah
GAEL’S POV She has been on my mind all night, and I hate that I can’t get rid of that bitch. She accusing me of not paying attention to the supposed women I fuck, makes me mad. To make matters worse, last night, I had taken a walk and found myself in front of the house the healer lives in. I hate that I can’t control the direction my legs go many times. I didn’t know Ezra had been going behind my back to form friendships with an outcast like her. They were having a good time on the porch of the house, laughing at some stupid joke, I am sure. He was supposed to spend time with me and console me for the death of my pup, instead, he gave an excuse saying he had an important meeting to attend. That’s his intended destination. My head ached from the sleepless night. But it’s not just about the stupid healer; may the goddess forgive me for hating on her messenger. Still, that doesn’t mean I fancy her taste in people. Who picks an inadequate folk to represent them? Only the moon goddess, of course. I was worried about Sarah, too. For some reason, which is very unlike me, I found myself scrolling through my phone last night, searching through the net for things to do for a lady who just had a miscarriage. I saw the excruciating pain in her eyes, and no matter how much I tried to get rid of it. Those eyes kept haunting my thoughts. Sitting up, I held my head in both hands, consoling myself from losing a bit of my mind. The door creaked open, and I didn’t need to check who it was. Gemma is the only one who walks into my private space with no respect. Sometimes, I wonder if she has any other priority in that life of hers except me. It’s barely morning, and she is here already. “Hey, my love.” She cooed, jumping onto the bed and wrapping her arms around my waist while kissing my neck. I inhaled deeply, wiggling out of her hold. “do you not sleep? Why are you here this early?”
Gemma pouted, stretching her legs. “I missed you and couldn’t sleep all through the night. You should be happy someone has you on their mind.” I scoffed, getting up. “There are many others who worry about me. And would even love for me to pay them a bit of attention. Don’t misuse your chance with me. I won’t repeat myself.” “What’s with the cold attitude this early morning?” “Are you asking me? If you truly worry about me, you would know that I am not in the best of moods now.” “Is this because of Sarah’s miscarriage?” She gasped at the end of the sentence. I turned around, furrowing my brows. “how the fuck did you know she was pregnant?” Swallowing hard, she stammered. “I-I heard from the other concubines.” Kissing my teeth, I made my way to the bathroom. “I see you all are having fun discussing another person’s pain.” “Oh, please. What pain comes from a miscarriage? It’s not like she lost a full child. And her not being able to carry the child long shows how weak she is. Someone with a perfect gene like mine is who you need to carry your child.” I shook my head in pity. Gemma is a lost cause. How would she know what pain feels like when she has never lost someone dear? The minute my mother realized she was carrying my sister, every day was a cherished moment for her. My father and I were just as expectant as she was. We saw the belly move, and we already had a name for her. Losing the child brought about a hole in each of our hearts. I didn’t know what my parents felt at the time, but I am losing mine now despite my detachment. I know now why my mother lost herself. Even though I am not in love with Sarah, I like her enough to prefer just her company many times that of Gemma. She is a sweet girl. I was rounding up my business and washing up in the bathroom. I stepped out of it to find a naked Gemma lying on the bed seductively. I blinked slowly and moved past her to the closet. I hear her roll out some colorful words before storming towards me. “What’s wrong, baby? Don’t you miss this?” She whispered in my ear, standing on a tiptoe.Content property of NôvelDra/ma.Org.
I moved away from her, and she almost lost her footing. “We had sex two days ago, if I remember correctly.” “Since when does that mean anything?” “I have other things to worry about beyond fucking you, Gemma. Go get a life or something.” I raised my voice, feeling angered all of a sudden. “How can you be so insensitive to my feelings? You affirmed that I lost my first child, and you still couldn’t give a condolence word or sentence. Instead, all you can think about is me screwing you. Don’t you have a life or anything to think about?” Her lips shook like she was about to cry. I ignored her usual act and kept up with what I was doing. “oh, I am the one without a life now? All the times you call onto me without thinking if I had anything else to do with my life, right? Now, you are the most sensitive one. All hail the king of good thoughts. It’s not like you even met the pup or something. What’s with all these attitudes?”
I snort, picking out my clothes. It’s a weekend so that I can be casual. I don’t need to attend any urgent meetings. Since the healer’s arrival, I must admit I have had peace restored to the council meetings. All the same, I still don’t like that filth called healer. “Say whatever it is you want, Gemma. I have always known you have nothing to offer me. So, excuse me, I need to meet with Sarah.” “What?” She let out in a shrilled tone that had my ears bleeding. “why would you meet with her all of a sudden?” I folded my arms, staring calmly at her. “the last time I checked, I do not owe you any explanation, ma’am. Excuse me. And get dressed, please you don’t look so hot arguing naked.” I hissed, walking past her. She screamed after me in her usual way of throwing a fit, slamming the door shut behind me. I made my way down the hall, and two of my concubines walked towards me with their heads bowed. They both looked pretty as ever. I would have loved to have them please me, but that raging bull in the room will lynch them alive. As always, I brought this shit upon myself. But there is no stopping now. “Good morning, Alpha.” They both chorused in their delicate voices. I hummed in satisfaction, caressing both of their cheeks. “Where is Sarah?” I asked after taking my time to admire them. “She is by the library, Alpha.” One replied. “Alright.” I mused, smacking their butts before moving ahead. Sarah curled up in one of the big chairs in the library with a book in hand. From the way she sat, you would think she is engrossed in the book. But her eyes stared blankly at the page, unmoving. Guilt gripped at my heart again, and the words of that crazy healer haunted me. Even though I knew her loss, I still accused her of hurting the child. Instead of going to her. I turned back to the door and left with another plan in mind. I drove out of the packhouse, heading to the nearest mall. I had returned to the room for a cap and hoodie as a disguise. Thankfully, Gemma already left, and I got to avoid getting questioned by her. It’s not like she would be able to do anything to me. I just hate confrontation. None of them knows this about me, but it’s heart-wrenching. On reaching the mall, I had no idea what I was supposed to get a grieving lady. The search engine wasn’t helping, not because their suggestions weren’t worthy. I am just clueless as to what Sarah likes. Resorting to flowers and some chocolates, coupled with a few dresses and shoes that I think might look nice on her. I did an excellent job at describing the recipient of the cloth. It feels nice knowing I got that right and feeling fulfilled like some damn Santa Claus. I returned to the packhouse. Thankfully, she was still there. From my findings, she might need therapy to get over the sudden loss of her baby. With my goodies in hand, I cleared my throat behind her. She gave me a look that showed no excitement or expectation. I put down the package in hand and I sat opposite Sarah. “How are you doing?” The words felt a bit alien. It’s been so long since I actually felt concerned genuinely about someone aside from Ezra and Perry or maybe Gemma once in a blue moon. Sighing, she stared at me weirdly. “I thought you said you wanted me to keep my distance.” I chuckled awkwardly, scratching my head. “I was only in my emotions. You know we just lost a pup. It had me in tatters.” “I’m sorry I lost your child.” “Don’t say it like that. You make it sound like I don’t care about you.” “Do you? You were just concerned about the dead pup and not the carrier. I understand that I don’t mean anything to you. But I didn’t think you would gladly wish me dead. The child is mine, too and I felt it in my belly. I’m hoping to see it someday. But it was snatched away from me by the cold hands of death, and all you could do was blame me. I will naturally not say anything. Still, I am taking this chance to say how I feel to your face and blame it on my grief. Because I won’t be getting such a golden chance ever again.” Her words came out slowly, and it pelted me hard in the face. I bowed my head, pushing the package towards her. The words on my tongue burned really bad, but I knew I have to say it. My mother would be rolling in her grave if she realized this is how I treat the women around me. My father would be primarily disappointed. However, I have no intention of taking the blame for that. The goddess should have treated my family better, and the girls family shouldn’t have been greedy. Some gladly gave their daughters away without pay. Hoping they someday become Luna. Crazy folks! “I am sorry.” It finally dropped like a bomb. And the both of us stared at each other in shock. I surprised myself, no doubt. And I blame that witch half-breed for all this. Her stupid voice and tiny eyes keep haunting. Even now that I am awake. I repeated it.
“I’m sorry, Sarah. As an Alpha, I should know that the feelings of my subject come first. Also, you are my concubine and woman. I’m not supposed to treat you shabbily. Forgive me. I got you those things from the mall hoping you might find it comforting.” I expected to see a shadow of a smile. But nothing came. “Is there anything that you think might put you in a good mood, please.” Too many apologies and please in a sitting. I am so going to strangle that half-breed. “Anything?” Sarah finally said. “Anything you want.” At least if it is not my life, I should be able to do whatever she wants to get rid of the guilt I am feeling. She held my gaze, looking all serious. “I want my freedom. I want to return home to my mother and start a new life for myself.” I must admit I wasn’t expecting that request, but still I already gave my word and as an honorable person, I should keep to it. “Alright if that’s what you want.” It is the highest shock I have given myself within ten minutes. “Do you mean that?” She sounded excited. I nodded proudly. I was feeling glad that Sarah’s face had finally brightened. “If that will make you happy. I am all for it.” “Thank you so much, Alpha.” She wailed, going on her knees. “It’s okay, Sarah. Forgive me for my disrespect over the years. Go freely, and I will send you off with some money to start something for yourself or get to move. Do take care. I will miss you a tad bit, though.” I admitted, and that brought a genuine smile to her face. “Bye. You will get the money before you leave.” I assured. “Thank you.” She whispered behind me. As I walked away, I choose to evade my study and reach out to that witch. She needs to know that I am better off than she thinks. I went to the garden behind the clinic after finding out from the clinic that she was taking the day off but not at the house. A greenhouse was as Instructed by her to plant many herbs for healing. The amusing thing about healers is how they didn’t go to school to study like every other person and end up knowing so much, especially about the most rare diseases. They are no doubt the messenger of the goddess. That still doesn’t mean I fancy her at all. She annoys the shit out of me. “Hey, half-breed. I see you are having fun being the healer.” I scoffed, folding my hands behind me. She raised her head slowly, staring me in the eyes. “It’s Nia. Not half-breed. Suppose you must address me, Alpha, you will have to do it respectfully. You either call me by my name or the tag healer.” I laughed dryly, “That still doesn’t change the fact that you are a half-breed and shouldn’t exist.” “You will have to present your case to the goddess, not with me.” She stated, returning to her work. I clenched my fist tightly, “I just need you to know I am not the person you have in your head. Whatever you think about me is a wrong picture painted about me.” “How does that concern me?” She retorted. Shit! Somebody hold me back before I bury this young lady alive. “What?” Sighing, she took off the gloves in her hands. “I already have many things on my plate to deal with trying to heal the sick folks in the pack. Thinking about you sounds absurd, please. Thanks for coming to see how the healing clinic is doing. It’s well appreciated. Have a good day, Alpha.” She smiled tightly and walked away. I tilted my neck, feeling the bones cackle. I am going to be the death of that half-breed. Just a little more, and my patience will be off the roof. Rude witch!