Chapter 32
I smiled lightly and then shook my head. ” It’s fine mom, staying would ruin my plans for the future.. I need my time alone to take care of our baby,, if fate is on our side.. we might meet in the future ” I muttered sadly.
” You sure? ” Mom asked and I replied with a nod. She gave a assuring smile as she patted my hair. ” Everything will be fine.. it will be fine ” She muttered and signalled to the driver to drive.
He obeyed immediately and he revved the car’s engine, driving out of the Bills’ compound and I knew this was it.
I’m leaving, forever? I might never see Tyler again, even if I do see him. He might have a lover by then or he’s probably married right?
But I will be having his baby. I felt mom’s hand squeezing on mine, she was trying to ease this huge pressure I had build between myself.
I gave in as I let out a sigh and leaned against the seat and my eyes shut immediately.
Like that, we returned home and I had everything planned out with mom, my future, my baby’s future.
For months, during my pregnancy months, mom stayed with me during my hard times.
Whenever I was suddenly feeling disgusted, feeling nauseous, feeling down, breaking down.. mom was always with me.
She helped me get through those hard times and trust me, it wasn’t easy. It made mom lose concentration of her work and in the end she had to take some break while her PA handled everything else.
I felt bad at most times seeing what I made her go through, and then after I birthed my baby. I couldn’t hide my joy and happiness.
My little baby.. my little Lia, she came to life. Amelia was just the exact replica of whom I had seen in my dream, tho she looked small and tiny like a new born baby would.
I was in love with my baby at first sight and promised to take really good card of her. My friends were off to college while I was at home together with mom, sometimes to take care of Amelia.
Mom got a caretaker for Amelia since I couldn’t take care of her alone while she was at work.
It was really hard, taking care of a baby at the age of nineteen but I endured, I endured cause I loved my baby and I would do anything to take care of her.
The first year passed and then the second year, Amelia was now 2 and my friends were now in their second year in university but trust me, I didn’t regret any of this at all.
As long as it’s for this little angel of mine, I will gladly do anything for her.
And then the third year, Amelia was now 3 and by now she could now walk and eat other foods. She could now speak tho not coherently but trust me, it was enough for a kid of her age.
Her strong teeth too weren’t left out, her tiny sparking white teeth which weren’t completed but at least we’re growing.
You might be wondering what little Amelia looks like, here’s a description.
I wouldn’t say she’s the exact replica of me, but she is the exact replica of Tyler and I combined.
In the first minute, she looks exactly like me but the the next minute she has Tyler’s face and then sometimes I see both of us faces on hers.
But trust me, my baby is really cute, her perfect small shaped nose like that of Tyler’s and then she has ocean blue eyes like Tyler’s and I would say that’s why I would say she look like Tyler the more, that outstanding ocean blue eyes that makes her look really dashing and adorable.
And then her small heart shaped pinky lips like mine and then her hair colour, it’s the same with mine, brown but hers is deep brown making me wonder if Tyler’s original hair is deep brown.
I have only seen him in red which I’m sure he dyed his hair to, my hair colour is brown, light brown but Amelia’s hair colour is deep brown like really deep probably bringing out the chocolate colour, something like that.
If you should ask me the one thing I found attractive in Tyler, was his ocean blue eyes, they made him look really pretty and like an angel and I can’t be more than happy that my baby has the same eyes.
And trust me, those eyeballs makes her look really pretty like extraordinary pretty like any other baby with normal eyes would look.
My baby is just too cute with those eyes that it suddenly made me wish I had the same eyeballs. No wonder Tyler was able to pull girls but I noticed Tyler always had lenses on.
He probably doesn’t like his pretty eyes or he thought they would attract girls to him. Isn’t that what he wanted?
I should stop talking about him now or I should? Um.. yeah, I haven’t laid my eyes on Tyler ever since then.
Not even a call from him or his family and trust me Mom ain’t pleased with them. She always seemed angry whenever I asked of them but I really shouldn’t care now.
He probably has a girlfriend now. He’s going to be resuming his third year in the university while I would just be starting as a fresher. Well, I’m not going to complain.
All that matters to me right now is my baby, I really am proud of myself, I’m proud I was able to hold on till now. I feel like a woman and a mother. I’m really proud of myself and I love myself for whom I grew up to be.
Enough talk about me now, So currently at this moment as I speak, I’m in..
Oh wait, You must be wondering if I had made any suggestions concerning Amelia and her dad. Well, I badly wants her for myself only and it would be really best if Tyler has a lover or something.
I know you must be wondering what went wrong with me or something but, tho it was hard at first.. I forced myself to get rid of any belief that Tyler might wait for me or we might meet in the future as that probably can’t happen and yes, I lost feelings.
And I really think he would have to, it’s been three years, and not like he was in love with me then, it was just a normal crush thing.
And we have different status now in terms of education, imagine a third year student liking a fresher?
Alright, that’s dumb cause it’s possible and happens every time but anyways, I don’t want any man in my life, not at all.
So back to what I was about telling you guys, I’m currently in mom’s car, she insisted on driving me here since it’s my first day in college.
I will be living in the school’s hostel and you must know how hard that would be for me to be away from my baby but I have to study no matter how I want to badly be around her.
Some guards had helped with my stuffs to my room in the school’s hostel.
” Mom… ” Amelia’s voice brought me back to life, haha.
I turned to her as clouds of tears had begin to form in my eyes and it was the same with hers.
” Amelia.. don’t cr.. ” Before I could complete my words, she broke into tears as she hugged me tightly at once, letting her tears fall freely.
I couldn’t hold mine any longer too as I let it down freely. I’m so going to miss her, I haven’t even left her side but I’m already missing her this badly.
” Mom.. mom.. are you.. are you.. really leaving? ” Amelia hiccuped in tears with muffled sound as I squeeze her more tightly to my chest.
I broke the hug and looked deeply into her ocean blue eyes which I’m so badly going to miss.
I melted as I stare more deeply before moving my face a bit from her piercing eyeballs.
” Amelia.. mom will be back soon, okay? I will be back with lots of candies, lots of ’em ” I said as sweetly and I could but she shook her head.
” No mom.. I want to go with you ” She muttered in tears.
Seeing her tears was hurting me so bad, I knew a day like this would soon come but trust me, I wasn’t ready for this.
I wiped her tears slowly. ” I will be back soon .. I promise ” I said, hoping she stops the tears.
” You promise?” She asked in her tiny little voice. ” I promise ” I reply and ruffled her hair a bit and then helped dry her tears with a towel.
I turned to mom and then the tears threatened to start again. I never liked leaving my mom alone, the last time I did, I cried but can I cry now? Now that I also have a child I didn’t want to cry.
Gosh, how far I have gone with my life. I now have a baby I don’t regret having even when I’m supposed to still be a child on my own.
It’s all fate, I won’t deny that. ” I love you so much mom ” I muttered as I hugged her tightly.
” I love you too ” Mom muffled in between the hug. I broke the hug and then pecked her cheeks.
I then turned to little Amelia, I chuckled. I have grown so fond of calling her that.
” Little Amelia.. ” I called and she looked up at me and I’m glad it isn’t with a teary eyes.
” Mom loves you okay? ” I said and she nodded with a sad smile. ” I will be back soon.. I promise ” I kissed her cheeks, ruffling her hair at the same time. You must have known by now that I enjoyed doing that.Text © by N0ve/lDrama.Org.
I opened the door and walking out of the car, the scent of the unfamiliar air hit me and I inhaled softly.
A new journey! A journey I should have begun two years ago, but no worries I will surely pull through.
Mom’s car moved from it’s initial position to where I was, the car’s glass was winded down and mom waved lightly at me and I did the same before my eyes landed on little Amelia, I waved at her and she waved her little hand lightly and I couldn’t help but smile brightly, that’s my baby.. she came from me.
Yeah, I’m always happy whenever this thought comes into my head. Once again, Amelia gave me a reason to smile.
I don’t care about finding happiness in any guy, I will always and will find my happiness in this baby of mine that I love so much.
I waved till the car drove out of view, I was bit suprised that no tears came out of my eyes but then at the thought of this.. it did.
I shouldn’t be crying, I know this… I mean I’m 21, anyone seeing me right now will probably think I’m deranged or something but it’s only cause of Amelia. I’m missing her badly even at this moment.
I pushed my leg inside the big building before me and found my way to my room as I headed to the hostel region.
It wasn’t easy finding my room as this place was a big building, oh yeah *Cambridge University* literally one of the biggest university here in the United Kingdom is my new school.
Yeah, it’s another country and that means I’m far from home. I’m studying business administration anyways, since I’m the only heir of mom’s company.
I found my room at last after wandering around for a while even with the help of the map. I was supposed to go see the chancellor but I would do that later.
Pushing the door opened, two figures raised their head to me at once. They were unfamiliar faces. What was I expecting? I probably know no one here.
They look younger, oh yeah.. they’re probably like 18 or 19 but I’m 21 and have a baby, haha.
” Hi ” I greeted and walked away to an empty bed supposedly meant for me when they kept on staring.
” Hi ” They finally muttered and continued with whatever it is they were doing.
That’s great! I didn’t want to make any friends at all, not when I’m older than they are.
They probably don’t know that cause trust me, I still look like I was two years ago, like nothing changed at all. I bet if Tyler saw me at first glance, he would recognize me immediately, I didn’t change at all, instead I grew more pretty.
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