Chapter 61 No One Win The War
Time flies really fast. It all started when I planned for my revenge until it ends with me, loving the son whom I believed killed my beloved parents.
“They will pay for all the damage they caused me, Owen… I promised that,” I said, as I stood in front of my parents grave. That was the very first time I visited them since I reached my teenage years. That day… I am only fifteen, still young and deep down, I know I am still incapable of getting my revenge.
But funny how it may sounds like, despite of the young age, hatred and my eagerness for vengeance is all that drives my world. It only revolves on revenge, on making they pay for their debt.
“I will help you, Candela. I’ll stay on your side and trained you until you are ready.” On the same day, Owen promised me his help.
He didn’t leave my side. He’s always there, not just as my trainer but also as my friend who stays on my side no matter what happen. He is the one who witnessed my weak side, who see me devastated during my countless breakdown. World seems so hard for me when I lost them–my parents– but because of Owen, I forced myself not to give up. Because aside from myself, there is Owen who believes that I can… I can have my revenge.
“See you soon Owen!” That was the last words I told him before leaving the city who has a big part of my identity, of my life.
Before he finally get out of my sight, I saw him smiling at me which gives me more courage to continue my plan. And when I finally entered the Crimson Palace, that was the starting point of my roller coaster ride.
At first, my mind can not be change. I am more on focusing on my plan that took me years before I finally got my chance. It all went according to what is supposed to be but everything slowly changed when I met him, I met the young lord named Primo.
I don’t know why? I don’t know why he made me changed without me knowing it. I just found myself, taking the different path of my revenge because of him. Because I want to protect him, that I don’t want to hurt him.
The incident happened on the woods, I don’t know why I did that? I don’t know why I save him? All that runs on my mind that time was to protect the young lord I served.
All I thought that Primo will be the one who is meant to change me totally but little did I know, there’s still someone who are meant to melt my hatred away.Copyright by Nôv/elDrama.Org.
Lord Blade Crimson.
Tsk!
Who wouldn’t knew him? The arrogant and ruthless first born of the Crimson Family. The first time their eyes met, I knew that it will be another ride for me. I tried to avoid him as what Primo always remind me but it seems like our paths are really meant to crossed afterwards. I often encountered him which only leads to a fight between the two of us. He hate me and for me– the feeling is mutual. Just like I hate his father, Magnus, I hated him too.
But again, destiny played with me. The more you hate, the more you love? Ah, that was pathetic.
How can I love the vampire whom I hated to hell? I keep on asking myself, how? I answered it with bundles of answers too but at the end of the day, I lost the fight whom I started silently.
The first time I stepped into their territory, I was Candela Rio who’s driven by my goal. Who has a large fire of hatred inside me. But who could say that I will ended into a whole new different Candela Rio?
I threw my plans away. I forget the hatred caused by the nightmare of my past. In order to be with Blade forever, I threw it all away. For my mate, I willingly changed myself.
I started to view on the positive side only. To see the murderer of my parents as someone who is meant to be my new father. To see the family that I once loathed as my new family who will I live my life together with them.
It was a good start for me, accepting and forgiving them. Until the night of full moon happened. The full moon that I always hated, that I always feared. I thought, that full moon night will be different because I have Blade on my side but I got it wrong.
Full Moon always gives me negative result just like when I was I child. Why did I set that aside?
During that full moon, I was still able to smile my heart out but those smiles immediately melted, faded away because she came. The Goddess of The Moon who has a bug part of my life. Who is meant to change not just me, but also, the whole beliefs that I chooses to believed from the very start.
Moon Goddess, Amari. The goddess of the moon who once possessed a pure heart but turned into an evil because of love.
All I thought that Coraline Rio and Baltimore Rio are my parents, my real parents but it all happened as lies. Coraline Rio, she is not my mother but my sister and Baltimore wasn’t my father.
Amari, the Goddess is my real mother. But she didn’t act like one, she didn’t treat me as her daughter. Rather, she only treated me as one of her puppets just like how she used Owen as her puppet who is served to manipulate me.
My own mother manipulated me from the very start. She played with her own daughter while I am suffering from strong anger, from deep loneliness of losing my fake parents. And what’s worst than that?
Well, Amari herself killed them… she is the one who truly killed my beloved parents whom I believed were slain by Lord Magnus.
Crazy, right?
All my life, everything about me are all part of her manipulation, of her evilness. She is my mother but for me, she is not.
And she will never be.
“Your Highness, your bathtub is now ready. Can we this robe off?” I smiled at the maid and removed my red bathrobe all by myself. I then walked through the bathroom and was welcomed by my golden bathtub were red roses petals are floating.
I drew near it and soaked my body. “You can leave me for a while, I will call you after I’m done,” I said and they obliged it afterwards.
When I left alone, I closed my eyes. Feeling the water that is now hugging my body. Remembering those last minutes I have when the war happened six months ago. I caressed my chest, right where my heart located in beneath. There were no sign left, a sign that will make me remember how my mother shoot me merciless. How she tried to kill her own daughter. No scars… no visible mark, just a smooth skin of mine.
I smiled. Who would have thought that I will survive? That me and my daughter inside my womb that time are going to survive?
“Mommy!” A familiar voice of a kid boomed inside my bathroom. The door swung open, giving my greatest treasure to me.
He then walked near my bathtub and joined me without hesitation. I instantly tickled him making him giggled.
“Mommy stop… It tickles!” He continued on moving as I tickles him.
As I saw his smiles, it gives me different kind of joy. A different kind of happiness that no one in this world could ever surpasses. He is my greatest treasure that I will forever be grateful for having him in my life.
“Condrad, you supposed to wear your suit now.” We both turned our heads to the door. Standing just few meters away from us is Blade, who’s already in his suits.
He walked through us, seating just beside us. “Candela, you always spoil our son,” he commented.
“Blade, you know I always want to spoil him.”
“But look at him now? Grow–”
“Stop it, Blade,” I said. “Condrad just wants to play with me. Come on, don’t be a kill joy.”
“Fine,” he breathed. He then removed his suits until his boxer is the garment he has. “I will join too. Let’s all have a bubble bath.” He said, seating behind me and hugs us with his wide arms.
“I love you, Mommy! Ilove you, Daddy!” Condrad says, kissing our lips afterwards.
“We loved you too, our Baby…” I said, tears rolled down from my eyes.
As I stared at him and realized that everything happened are all worth it. From the sorrows I’ve been through. From the pains that cuts deep on me. All the trials and sacrifices… They are all worth it.
That war, the war that killed many lives gives us all grief. Our hatred that fueled the war six months ago gives us a chaotic results. Now if I am going to ask, who win the war?
My answer will be none. None of us win…
No one win the war.
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