Mistaken Identity

Chapter 70 Not Likely

Kalliyah's Pov

I look at him not knowing what. He looked good like he hasn't being in any pain. He was nicely shaved

and he smells good. Has he moved on? Is a another girl in the house with him, why does he look so

hot?

"Kalliyah," I lifted my gaze to his emerald eyes, he sound shock that I'm here. I'd be too if i were him. I

didn't exactly leave things friendly; i was mean and selfish. I was only thinking of myself.

"Can I come in?" I found myself asking. It's not like i want to stay out here in cold night air in my

situation.

He look at me for what it seems as it was ages until he nod his head. He moved to give me way to pass

the door. I slowly walked pass him into the house that i miss very much. I walked to living room and

took a seat in the couch that lay in front the fireplace. He was still standing looking down at me, not

saying a word.

"Can you please sit down?" I ask slowly.

He lifted his hands and scratch his head. "I should go and put on some cloths first." I look down at his

bare chest.

I nod and he left.

I look around the house i use to 'live' in. The house shared many memories, happy, sad, excitement

and love. I miss it here. I miss everything in this house. Especially him and that's why i'm here. I'm

here to get back my baby, my man; if he's willing to have me back. It seems that he has moved on with

his life, maybe found another girl better than me or probably he just has forgotten about me.

I haven't forgotten him though. He's the first thing i think about when i wake and last when i go to bed. I

still love him and not one day my mind hasn't drift to him and how he treated me with love when my

memory was gone. How he told me he loved me multiple times but i never repeated it once until i

thought i had lost him. Lost everyone. But the question that i need the answer to is Does he still love

me? Does he forgive me for hurting him for making him cry? Will he take me back?

I need him. I need Alex especially now.

I sat down looking into space until i saw Alex taking a seat in the one diagonally from me. When he sat

down he held both of his hands together not looking at me. I didn't know what to say so i stayed silent

looking on his garment which was nothing fancy. He's wearing a grey plain T-shirt and sweat pants.

Grey. Where is Grey?

"Where is Grey?" I voiced my thoughts.

"Probably in the basement." he answered trying to keep his sentences short.

"Oh, that's good. I'm glad he's okay. He's probably happy here. Happier than i ever made him with all

the nice dog food you can afford. I could never.."

"Are you here to discuss the dog or to talk about us because i'm confused?" Alex interrupted. I look at

him and swallowed. How do could i bring up the past and not feel bad.?

I'm happy that he even said us which meant there probably is still an 'us'.

"No, i'm not here about the dog, i'm here about us." I swallowed as i repeated his word. I bent my head

looking at my hands. I wasn't really sure what to say next because he didn't seem like he wanted to

start and build a conversation with me but at least i can try. Try and make things better between us.

"I'm sorry." my apology came out slower than i expected. "I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for making

you cry. I wanted you to feel the way i felt when you pushed me out of your house. I was more than

hurt, i felt like damage goods and i wanted you to know how it feels to have someone you love hurt

you. Do you know hurt i was when you kicked me out? Do you know it felt when that suitcase hit my

head. It hurt like hell, i felt like i wanted to die and maybe i did. You hurt me, Alex, you hurt me." I wiped

the tears off my cheeks with the back of my palm.

"I know! I know Goddammit! I know I hurt you and I'm sorry. I told you I'm sorry over and over. Why

can't you just forgive me?" he shouted from his seat.

"I do. I forgive you and i understand why you did it. I understand now why you did what you did. I

forgive you. But do you forgive me? Can you forgive me for hurting you?" I tried my best to not break

down completely in front of him. I can make the tears fall but I will not breakdown.

He shake his head and pause. My heart rate increase, he doesn't forgive me.

"There is nothing to forgive. You didn't hurt me, I hurt myself. I hurt myself when i didn't trust. I hurt

myself when i let my guard down. I still fell for you even when I thought you might have being the one

my father slept with. I still fell and so when you didn't forgive me, it was my fault. My fault for falling in

love with you. You didn't hurt me, Kally. I hurt myself. I hurt myself when fell in love with you."

"Are you still?"

"Am I still what?" he asked confused.

"Are you still in love with me?" I bent my head afraid the answer might be no.

I heard him sigh but didn't answer. My heart felt like it was shattered in a billion pieces, he doesn't love

anymore. Of course he doesn't, he was a fool to fall for me in the first place. I can't believe i came here

hoping and praying that he still feels the same way. Of course he doesn't love anymore. I'm no longer

his heart and that hurt. That hurt a lot.

"I never stopped." the words didn't register to me clearly at first so i lifted my head to look him in the

eyes.

"What did you just say?"

"I said i never stopped loving you. I haven't stopped" he was looking in my eyes.

"You haven't?"

"No, you're still my heart. There is not one day that I don't think about you. I try not to, hell I try drinking

to get the pain away but nothing works. It all comes down to me seeing your beautiful face in my

thoughts. I just can't help myself. I can't help that i'm madly, truly and deeply in love with you.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and tried to smile. "I love you too and I never stopped loving you, not

once i didn't wake up thinking about you or go to bed without thinking about you, not dreaming about

you. It's only you. I'm so sorry I called you a fool, if you are a fool. I am too. Because only fools fall in

love right?"

He smiled and got up from his seat and came in front of me.

"We are both fools." I laughed and he smiled at me.

"So are we cool?" I asked not really sure where we stand.

"Yes, we are"

"Can we go back to being normally?" he laughed at words.

"Normal? Baby, we were never normal."

"Well, that's true." I agree and smiled.

Alex came closer to me. Placing his forehead on mine, looking in each others eyes. He lowered his lips

to mine in a tender kiss. The kiss that he was free to do because i'm finally his forever. When the kiss

was to be deepened i pulled away.

I took a deep breath while Alex looked at me confused. "Is everything okay?"

I smiled. "Everything his perfectly fine, I just wanted to tell you something."

"Tell me what?"

"Well, I'm going to have our baby."

"What?" he asked uncertain.

"I'm pregnant. I found out two days ago and I couldn't keep it from you. I didn't know my biological

father and i don't want that for our baby. I don't want to cry myself knowing that i make a mistake with

not forgiving you because i do love you. I do, very very much."

Alex smiled at me. "We're going to have a baby. We're going to have a baby!." he jumped up in joy. "I'm Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

going to be a father!"

He laughed and hugged me tight. I couldn't help laughing myself.

"You're happy?"

"Happy? I'm overjoyed." he looked in my eyes and leaned closer. "I love you and I'm happy that we're

going to be have a baby."

I smiled at him. "I love you too, very much."

"I love you more than you can imagine."

"Not likely."