Chapter 32- I failed my child
Isabella
It was pitch black, I was surrounded by darkness. I felt extremely cold and I had been walking in this darkness for what seemed like forever. It feels like an endless tunnel, my heartbeat was spiking up as I kept walking. A certain fear crippled my insides, the more I kept walking, the more the air around me turned heavier.
Suddenly I heard voices calling my name, I turned in the midst of darkness and followed the direction where the voices were coming from, and my surroundings grew foggy, allowing clear light to float in.
I woke up and my brows furrowed confusedly at the faces observing me. I looked around and the beeping machine and saline drip were enough to tell me where I was.
Immediately they noticed I was awake. Lance held my hands and there was a glint of pain and anger in his eyes. Queen Selena sat on the bed close to me, her eyes were puffy and her nose was dripping with mucus, it seemed as if she had been crying for ages.
I shifted my gaze searching for him and there he was standing at the far end of the room. His eyes were searching me, his amber-brown eyes were fixated on mine as he studied my face. I saw the muscles in his hands clench and his veins pop out. It was obvious that he was restraining himself and it was taking him a lot of effort to do that.
I could see the features of his face crumpled with pain and rage. And my heart yearned to touch him, to take away those pains in his eyes. I couldn’t help it and I know I couldn’t deny him, at least not for long.
Just then a doctor and a nurse entered carrying a folder after they finished checking my vital signs. The doctor cleared his throat took out a paper from the folder and said
” Luna, from the test carried out there was no internal injury, You just need to be placed on pain relieving tabs and you would need to rest more so you can regain your strength. Don’t engage in any strenuous work so your body can heal quickly.” He stopped and looked at me, and my heart began to race in fear. I had a bad feeling about what he was going to say next, something didn’t seem right but the doctor interrupted my thoughts and continued
” I’m so sorry Luna, We tried our best to save the child but Unfortunately, we lost it.”
For a broken second, I felt like I could not breathe at the thought of losing my unborn child. I was hit with a sharp pain and my hands instantly went to my stomach and I felt like every blood in my body had been drained. I felt my breathing hitch. My heartbeat was spiking, my face was paralyzed with shock and my insides were crippled from excruciating pain. My ray of hope has been squashed in the dark gloomy clouds.
” It can’t be?” “What kind of fate was this?”
My heart was hammering hard against my chest. I couldn’t breathe. It was as if every breath in my existence had somehow vanished and I felt like my whole world had shattered. My life was slowly escaping from me and my soul drowned with several emotions all at once, suffocating me. I held my stomach and I couldn’t hold the pain I felt within me. I wanted to release the misery, anguish, and grief that flooded within me. My body began to quiver, my bones were trembling hard against my joints.
I felt guilty, I should have been able to protect my pup. I was truly cursed, I couldn’t even save my child. I didn’t realize that tears had slipped down my eyes. My wolf kept whimpering with the thought of our mate killing our pup.
“Poor Sia,” All she yearned for was a mate to love and cherish her.
Tears flooded my eyes, and my sobs came out harshly as they spilled to escape my bruised and battered soul.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and tilted my head a little to find Lance’s somber eyes on me.
” I couldn’t protect my child, I failed my child, Why me?” I asked no one in particular, my voice was battered and low.
” Please Bella be strong,” Lance said, trying to convince me why Queen Selena held my hand and was sobbing.
I turned to the door where Malcolm was standing and his eyes on me were intense and he spoke through the mind link
” I’m so sorry Luna, I failed to protect your child. Please forgive me, I should have known you were in danger. I should have brought you faster to the hospital. It breaks me to see you in pain. I’m sorry Luna” he turned and left the hospital room.
His words were confusing. I had a lot of questions but none of that mattered now.
I couldn’t handle it. Not this time. I have to reject Arden as soon as possible and flee from the Blood Moon Pack. If he can murder his unborn child then he wouldn’t think twice about doing the same to me.
I watched as the doctor prepared my discharge letter and wrote down some medication while the nurse came close to me and took out the cannula on my hand and sealed the area with a plaster.
After everything had been sorted out we left the hospital and Lance drove us back to the Packhouse and they escorted me to my room and kissed me goodbye after I settled down.Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.
I thought about my life and my plans if I ran away the treaty alliance would be broken and Arden would kill my dad and sisters because of the betrayal. I just have to find a way to warn them maybe Dad would decide to replace me with any of my sisters.
Yes. That’s exactly what I’ll do, but I have to be stealthy. I wouldn’t let anyone know of my plans.
I felt a flutter of hope warmed my heart, I would escape Arden, even if it’s the last thing I do.
And this time around I would prove to myself that I’m not a weakling.